HOW TO COPE WITH LOSING YOUR DAD

So this year has definitely been an emotional battle for me, coming back coping with my family situation!! Thanks to the special people, who said I could fight through this, all that moral support have played it’s part..

So how did I cope with it all, for the first part of the year, I just ignored the fact that my father was sick.. I was in complete denial… The denial hit at the faci wrap session in Singapore over Christmas, I heard Francois share a story of why he was here, and I just broke down.

The tears flooded my eyes, and for the first time since I got back from Vancouver, I spent time with myself, I questioned myself alot during that trip what I was doing, and where I wanted to be, and how I wanted to support my father. All questions had no response…

But thats life, sometimes there is no answer, but we still live through it..

Out of confusion of life, and I guess expectation I decide to run for MCP.. It was overwhelming finding out some of the politics behind every story. Im proud I didnt participate in all of it…
I prayed, and the the results were a blessing…

Next thing I knew I was in Morocco for MENA LDs, I cant even begin to express what I felt in that conference. Out of all the international experiences, I have never been moved so much. As an Arab woman, I have never seen so many Arabs in one place! I have never really felt that our region could be any better than what it is. But there I really believed! I believed again in my region, and my world!

I come back, and reality hits me again, and I had forgotten what I had just rediscovered. But something better came along, a person who reminded me of the things I used to enjoy… I got lost in more questioning, where I asked myself who am I? who have I become? Where do I want to go?

Oddly enough I had no words to describe myself!

I also decided to spend yet another year in AIESEC, I guess the feelings from MENA woudnt go away, and I applied and am elected for the new Middle East North Africa(MENA) Growth Network Project Manager.

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The journey starts within yourself.. Throughout this year, I guess I forgot that..

“If you don’t know who you are, how do you expect somebody else to know you”

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