“Time is free, but it’s priceless. You can’t
own it, but you can use it. You can’t keep
it, but you can spend it. Once you’ve lost it
you can never get it back.” Harvay MacKay
In less than 4 weeks, I will complete my fifth and final year of my life as an undergraduate. I never thought my last semester would feel like this, with only one last presentation, 4 papers, 4 assignments and 4 finals: I feel is a mixture of confused emotions. Being able to count the final days has made me reflect back and look back at how much I have grown, my achievements and failures. I feel a pre-nostalgia of being a student and I haven’t even left yet.
The wonderful places I have been and amazing people I have met. All the personal hardships I had to gone through to become this woman I am now. As I compare myself to my friends who have already graduated – the space between their lives and mine never felt as large as it does when I walk on campus and sigh over how its being taken over by freshmen who are just embarking on their journey.
In addition to the anxiety and a little loneliness, I also feel unready to deal with the actual process of getting my degree. That one piece of paper, the diploma that determines that you have completed one landmark in life.
But with the mixture of feeling, I know I can create something positive with my degrees and experience thus far. I don’t regret my choices but I’m anxious to see if I will regret my future.
Graduation Anxiety! Does everyone go through this?