I am a woman, and I am proud of it.
When I was younger, I struggled to accept that I was a girl and eventually would become a woman. Growing up with two brothers, expressing emotions, feeling deeply were sort of seen as signs of weakness. I learnt that be taken seriously, there were things I could and could not do.
To be serious! I avoided feeling and expressing feelings, built brick walls; I thought that trusting my body, intuitions were fluff and rational thought was more important.
When my dad was diagnosed with cancer, my emotions boiled up and rational thought was no longer rational. Emotions have a mind of its own and my body is designed to cope with it. I embraced feeling deeply. It allowed me not only let me understand me but begin to understand the beauty of being a woman.
I am a woman. I learn to cope with the hurting, hate it, and love it, whatever it is, to deal with it. And in a way I guess I have started to love the hurting, the hating… because its part of how I can heal myself, find my inner peace, and make the world a better place.
I want to live in a world where people love themselves, embrace the hurt, accept their imperfections because you know what… beauty lies in imperfection.
Now more sadness has come into my life, with loss of loved ones and chronic illnesses, and I have realized that I will keep evolving… I will keep transitioning and that’s the beauty that I embrace as a woman. I am enough even though sometimes I might forget that. I am enough.. I am the best version of me there is… so therefore I am enough…
I will continue to feel deeply, love the way I want to love and how I am loved.
I want others to live where they feel loved and realize that can have any dream they desire. Which is why in order to have that, I need to be that. I am willing to walk down the off beaten road, jump off planes, go half way across the world on crazy adventures even though at times it might seem lonelier and more grueling then watching television, staying in a job that you hate and scarifying living for the weekend.
Life is easy, we as humans make it complicated.
That’s why I practice I preach and live life on my terms because for me to give the gift of peace I need to search for my own peace.
There is no need to try to understand me, because as soon you do, I will transition to better version of me.
Instead, try to feel me. Feel the emotions because its those feelings that make you stronger not weaker.
That’s what makes me a Woman!